Category: baby

Too soon to re open schools? I have concerns.

It’s Thursday yet again, it appears to creep up on me far too quickly. I really hope that you are OK, well and safe.

This week has been a mixed bag for me, some good days mixed with some awful ones. I bet that you can relate to this.

Being poor and recovering from Covid 19 is no joke. Suffering from long covid is no joke either, especially when the highlight of the day is beans on toast when you can muster up the strength to make it.

We struggle on though. There are some fantastic Long Covid groups on Facebook and we support each other. It’s a good job that we do because not many other organisations do.

I am worried about a second wave coming in September when we have been told that we have to send our children back to school.

So many people still believe that children can’t catch Covid 19. They can and they do. Many unknowingly will be symptom free and will be at risk of passing the virus onto their loved ones.

Are our children going to be used as some type of sick experiment by the government?

My daughter attends a secondary school, her school has decided to keep lesson time to the very basics therfore her hours at school will now be from 10 until 2.40pm.

This won’t stop the spread of covid 19 though. Her school is a new school but they don’t turn the air conditioning on and many of the teachers don’t open the windows either.

Children will be stuck in this hot, sweaty environment at a very close proximity to their friends.

The school hasn’t suggested that children should wear a mask, but I’d challenge anyone to get all of the pupils to wear a mask all day. It’d be a challenge to say the least.

I am very concerned though. I don’t think that the government has thought this through, just like they didn’t put enough thought into pubs reopening.

As we’ve seen in the news lots of people have contracted Covid 19 from a visit to a pub. I’ve no doubt that it’ll be the same when our schools reopen.

I, like most parents want the best for my daughter. I want her to be able to have all of her lessons, to he educated and to do well in life.

Sadly, it looks like she doesn’t stand a chance of that the way that things are planned at the moment.

Educating children online isn’t the answer either. Thousands of families don’t have the Internet or don’t have a device to watch the online lessons on.

So what’s the solution then?

I do think that having a dedicated television channel for lessons would be beneficial. Children can often learn more visualy and some good results could come from this.

We could also learn alot from the parents of home educated children. They’ve been doing it for years, and so many home educated children go to college and university.

They rock this!

But I’m aware that I’m missing one important point.

I’m sure that my daughters school isn’t the only one that will be reducing their teaching hours and lessons.

What will the parents of these children do when they have to go to work? You can’t just leave children to their own devices, to rely on them to go to school without prompting.

I know for a fact that I wouldn’t have gone into school if my parents weren’t there to make sure that I did.

This puts parents in a very difficult situation. Childcare is expensive and not everyone has family members that they can ask to help.

People are desperately trying to hold onto their jobs if they’re lucky enough to still be employed. They can’t rely upon their employers to be sympathetic either.

What I do know is that if their children are absent from school, their school will soon be chasing them up and threatening them with legal action.

This isn’t at all fair though. Those making these decisions have absolutely no idea about what life is really like.

Then we have school uniforms to buy.

School uniforms are very expensive,

I know that I can’t afford to buy my daughter a new uniform this year. Thousands of parents will be in the same position as me.

My daughter has sensory issues so buying her school uniform is difficult at best.

To say that it’s humiliating and depressing to not being able to provide necessities for our children is an understatement.

Hopefully my daughter will never experience this when she has children.

When you’re left with no choice but to have beans on toast once a day how on earth can they demand that you buy a school uniform as well?

In my area there are no school uniform grants available which is shocking.

My daughters school, and most secondary schools send home pupils that aren’t wearing the correct uniform.

Once again discriminating against children living in poverty.

We will try but it’s not going to be easy.

So whilst it’s easy to congratulate the fact that schools are re opening on September, please consider the above.

I don’t want my daughter to catch Covid 19, I don’t want her friends to either. I also don’t want to catch it again.

I want my daughter to have a good education, but the very idea of that is seemingly impossible at the moment.

Will the government give out children time to catch up with what they’ve missed? I doubt it. Working class children aren’t high on their priority list, if at all.

Will the government give parents free access to online and in print learning materials?

Will the government push to dedicate a TV channel in the daytime for the visual education of children?

I doubt this very much.

Once again it’s left to us, as parents and carers to do the best that we can under very tough circumstances.

I do think that schools are re opening too early.

It’s easier to distance primary school age children from each other than it is a group of teenagers.

This is also going to be very tough and challenging for teachers.

Teachers in America have been advised to make a will just incase they catch covid 19 and die.

I’m certain that many teachers here in the uk will be doing the same thing.

I can’t imagine what could be worse than stuck in a hot, sweaty classroom with children for hours knowing that viruses, germs and bacteria thrive in environments like this.

How many teachers and children will become ill or worse because of the government’s decision to re open schools?

Will the government make the decision to shut the schools again if mortality rates from Covid 19 increase?

I doubt it, once that open they’ll be expected to stay open.

We have a government incapable of putting any positive plans into action. They blatently show their hatred of the working classes by the actions that they’ve taken and not taken.

The government has blood on its hands for more than one reason. They’re up to their necks in it.

It’s up to us to keep reminding them that we are important, that our life’s do matter and our children are valuable.

Don’t get me started on this idea. Covid 19 tests are very unreliable and weekly tests are just not doable. No doubt they’ll expect already hugely burdoned teachers to do this as well.

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Eat Out To Help Out. Another way to discriminate against the poor and disabled.

Dear readers I’m so sorry that this blog is so late. I’m still battling the Covid 19 fatigue and this combined with the ongoing kitchen refit and insomnia has been a recipe for disaster.

My social housing provider should have started work on this in March but because of Covid 19 it was delayed.

Thankfully I’m no longer infectious and the work could continue. It’s been no fun living out of one room and having strangers in my house, but it’s finished now and I’m very grateful for it.

I’m also very grateful that I have a home when so many people don’t have one. I’ve come very close to loosing this one a few times and I’ve been homeless before.

I know exactly how you are feeling because I’ve been there.

I had a few disasters this week though, my cooker broke and was unfixable. It was around 30yrs old and I loved that cooker. No frills, it did what it set off to do and I love simplicity, it makes life much easier.

Secondly as a result of the covid 19 virus my hair has started to fall out, not loads but it’s happening. Thanks for that.

Insomnia has also hit me hard this week, and yesterday I was so exhausted that I couldn’t do much.

Anyway, enough about me. I hope that you are OK and as well and safe as you can be.

The Covid 19 virus continues to spread leaving many victims strewn behind it.

It’s a misconception that it’s only elderly people that become seriously ill and die, lots of fairly fit young people do also.

The elderly have been treated terribly though, left in nursing homes to die like their life’s don’t matter at all.

In my eyes out elders are very important, they paved the way for us to live like we do, albeit most of this has been taken away by the Tory government.

I was taught to respect and care for my elders but it appears the Tories have no regard for them.

Their cruelty appears to be never ending and whilst they’re away on holidays or spending time in their second homes, more people will continue to die and suffer.

There’s nothing more insulting than for these people to attempt to try and advise us on how to live and what to do when they come from a place of great privilege.

Talking about privilege here’s another example.

Recently the government unveiled its latest plan to benefit society and small business owners. They titled it Eat Out To Help Out, they even gave it its own hashtag.

Whilst on the surface it looks like a good idea, it’s still out of reach to so many of us. The idea is that it gives people £10 to spend at specific eateries throughout the UK.

Some businesses such as coffee shops are giving a 50% discount on some orders. This is good, however you have to have the other 50% to pay for it though.

To put it bluntly, so many of us don’t have the money to contribute towards this and we are excluded from benefiting from this by default.

I do have questions though.

Why didn’t they extend this further? Why, knowing that the majority of people living in the UK are living in poverty wasn’t it extended to them?

Why weren’t fruit and veg shops and retailers included in this? Why weren’t local shops that serve their communities by providing the means to cook their own food?

Why aren’t these small businesses included? They’ve suffered as well, but like us they’ve been swept to the side like yesterdays newspaper.

It all comes down to the government’s priorities, their priority being to keep their friends in business happy, keep the wheels of commerce going at whatever the cost to many.

The whole winding down of the social distancing rules was rushed, not because they put the safety of the public first. Public safety wasn’t even thought about.

My guess is that the government was leaned upon by their business pals and party donars. Big money won the day, sod the public.

I’m certainly not saying don’t support your local small businesses, if you can afford to you should, however you need to remember that so many people are excluded from this scheme and the very basics of what constituents a decent and happy life.

The government also unveiled their latest obesity discrimination campaign, whilst their party leader and prime minister is indeed himself overweight.

We already know that being overweight puts you at risk of contracting Covid 19, but they didn’t look into the reasons as to why so many of us are overweight.

A lot of it comes down to the lack of access to decent food and the ability to cook it.

Cooking food costs money and if you are living in a hotel room or one room with your family in homeless accommodation, you arent allowed to cook in your room.

This has been happening for years now, I’ve advised people how to cook kettle food whilst they are stuck in this position.

Kettle food has hardly any nutritious value though, it’s mostly starchy, gluteny and devoid of any vitamins. This food settles in your body for a long time.

Then we have people like myself who are dependent upon food parcels. Mostly you get tinned food which isn’t very good for you.

I know that some tinned food isn’t that bad for you, but its still very hard to cook a nutritious meal out of it. It even harder when you don’t have any cooking equipment to help you.

Then we have medication, the lack of ability to exercise in any way possible. Combined with food parcel food etc, it’s a disaster nutritionally.

How on earth can the government expect people with life changing disabilities to suddenly loose weight is beyond me. Staying alive and having a productive enjoyable life is a priority for them.

For years the government has abused disabled people in the worst way possible. They’ve taken their means of support away, their carers, their very means of support away.

Meanwhile the Tory government will continue to persecute them whilst they’re enjoying themselves in their second homes.

I don’t choose to live like I do, people don’t choose to live in poverty but the government does choose to persecute the most vulnerable on a daily basis. The government are the cause of our poverty.

So what do we do now? We try to survive in the way that’s best for us.

We need to continue to campaign against their disgusting ideals and attitudes.

Remember there’s more of us than there is of them.

Keep strong, support each other and continue to challenge the narrative.

Please keep safe and practice social distancing if you can.

I want to thank all my friends, followers and readers for all of the support that you have given me throughout my own Covid 19 battle.

I really couldn’t have got through this without you all. I’m so thankful and grateful for you all.

Lots of love and solidarity with all of you.

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Covid 19 the unwanted gift that keeps giving.

Dear readers it’s been a tough old week for me and my Covid 19 battle.
Sadly I rebounded again and I’m now completing my fifth round of antibiotics.

Tough yes but however I do know and I appreciate that I have it much better than many have had it. I’m alive and I’m very grateful for that.

So yesterday I ended up back at the hospital with yet another reoccurrence of the pains that I’ve been getting.

I wanted answers, I wanted to know why I keep feeling like this. I hate the unknown which doesn’t fit well with Covid 19.

I had my bloods taken, x rays and scans done and I waited for the results.

Eventually I saw a lovely doctor who totally got it, he understood exactly what I’ve been going through.
He explained that my bloods are OK but from the scans he could see scarring on my lungs.

I then asked him about the pains and my sometimes galloping heart rate.


The answer was this. Because of the pneumonia and pleurisy my lungs have taken a battering and the pains are as a result of the remnants of the above and the scarring.

I asked him about my heart rate and he said that my heart appeared to be ok after being on a heart monitor. He said that lots of people who have had covid 19 get this and so far they don’t know why.
He’s referred me to a respiratory specialist and another specialist regarding my heart rate and for more tests.

Covid 19 damages your body in so many ways and because its an unknown virus it’s hard to get answers about anything.
Research is being done though and maybe we will get some answers soon.


I got some very good advice from the doctor and my friends. I need to stop trying to to too much, I will heal but it takes quite a long time to get back to somewhat normality.

This doesn’t mean that I’m going to give up campaigning though, infact it means the opposite.

We need to continue to campaign more than we have done before.
Our rights are being eroded away at a fast rate and so many things are being missed because of the Covid 19 pandemic.

Every day I publish the official Covid death rates, you know the deaths that the government wants us to forget about. They want the public to forget about Covid 19. It’s up to us to continue to publicise them.

Covid 19 is still having a massive impact both national and locally.

Whilst I was at the hospital yesterday I saw three very ill people being admitted to the hospital because of Covid 19. I know this because covid patients are being directed to another specialised department.
Their stories are the stories that the public don’t get to hear. The man that collapsed at home because of covid, the woman found in her bed seriously ill, the man that walked into the department and nearly collapsed when he got there.

Remember that their and our life’s don’t matter to the government and to some local authorities. Out of sight and out of mind.

Please keep in mind that telephone medical assessments are taking place once again.
If you have to have one of these examinations treat it as if you were at their medical centre.
Have a list of all of your medications and illnesses or disabilities. Try and have someone with you and ask them to take notes also.

I’m going to continue to plod on as I say, trying my best to give my daughter a good childhood despite having a very deminished income.
I can honestly say that I’ve never felt so bad about being a bad mother because I can’t give my daughter what her friends have.
Every day I feel this guilt like many parents do. Tough some say, that’s life. Except that it shouldn’t be like this.

The kindness and support of my friends has kept me going as have OUR NHS.
I’m determined to be back out there ASAP but I’m still helping people the best way they I can from home.

I want to thank each and every one of you for the support and friendship that you have given me. When I say that it means a lot to me I really mean it.

Stay safe everyone, wear a mask and wash your hands. Self isolate if your vulnerable and do whatever is right for you to continue.


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My 5th Covid 19 rebound. We need to talk more about long term covid 19 sufferers.

Dear readers it’s Thursday and I hope that you are all OK and as well as you can be.
Sadly I’ve rebounded again and I’m now on another course of antibiotics which I’ll be taking for the next seven days.
Sadly I’ve not been fit enough to do much and this week. I have been busy online and trying to do what I can.

The housing association that I rent my house from have decided to resume the work to fit a new kitchen so we’ve had to clear everything out of there.
We are now living in our small downstairs living room which is packed full of stuff from the kitchen.

I am very happy that they’ve decided to do this work because I’ve been waiting for 13 years for them to do this.
I am however too ill to appreciate it as much as I should.

Being a long term covid 19 sufferer is awful, it feels like it’s never ending. One minute you’re feeling on top of the world, that you’ve beaten it and all is good.
The next minute it comes straight back like a big cloud that’s raining heavily.
In my case it’s hit my chest the worst, this isn’t the same for everyone though. Friends that are also long term sufferers have a variety of symptoms ranging from exhaustion, headaches, pains in their limbs and joints, their eyes have been affected the list goes on and on.

Not enough people are talking about long term covid 19 sufferers like myself.
Andrew Gwynne MP is a fellow long termer and he published a really good article about his experiences of this awful virus and the long term affects

I’m sure that my friends and family are fed up with me being ill now but I really can’t help it. If I had a magic wand I would magic it away.

I am missing my old life, taking my daughter out, seeing friends, taking the dog for a decent walk and eating treats like chocolate etc etc.

I do realise that I’m luckier than so many people that didn’t survive Covid 19. Their families must be devastated.

What does make me angry though is the people that claim that Covid 19 is made up, it doesn’t exist, that it’s a lie and is some kind of joke.

Personally this makes me feel sicker than I do now. What gives them the right to belittle the suffering and deaths of so many?

What I do know is that if these people catch it they’ll be the first to demand the help of OUR NHS, our doctors, nurses, nursing assistants and support services.
Please don’t insult us with these lies, instead listen to us and try to understand how we are feeling. It isn’t hard to do.

Luckily my doctors surgery is doing telephone consultations but if you don’t have a phone or credit how are you supposed to get in touch with your doctor for help?
If a person doesn’t have any Internet either then it’s impossible. I really worry about everyone in this situation.

Yesterday I had to collect my meds. I wore my mask, kept away from people and used hand sanitizer like it was going out of fashion.

Whilst I was out I couldn’t help but notice the large amount of people walking around without wearing a mask. I’m positive that the death rates will rise as a result of this.

Covid 19 is still here folks, it hasn’t ended and so far there’s no sign of an end to it.

I’m trying to keep positive though although it’s not easy. Facebook memories from our days out keep popping up. My daughter deserves better than this.

I’m missing so much but I’m grateful for so much also. I’m getting used to living from food parcels, at least I have them. I am missing my treats though.

It’s a big culture shock though and it takes time to adapt to it. I do miss shopping though but it is what it is isn’t it.

What has helped me enormously is your support and help and the solidarity from other long term covid 19 sufferers. We all know what it’s like to feel like this.

My art has also kept me going, and I’ve been so lucky in getting help with this. It’s a good distraction and I get a good sense of actually achieving something.

What I do worry about though is how are people going to return to work, that’s if they have a job and are a long term covid sufferer? Personally and would find it impossible at the moment.

There is very little support for us out there but we do have each other and that’s something.

This week has been a bit of a blur and I make no apology for how I feel.

I want to send my love and solidarity to my good friend Keith Lindsey Cameron. He’s a good friend of mine and he’s been ill.
If you havent seen his work yet then have a look he’s an amazing campaigner.

I’m going to end it here because I’m knackered but take this message with you.

Let’s talk about everyone suffering from Covid 19 and the long term sufferers. Let’s keep reminding the government that people are still dying because they want people to forget about this.


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DWP sanctions return despite the pandemic. DWP and government cruelty at its worst.

Dear readers its Thursday yet again. I hope that you are all safe and as well as you can be.

I have some good news regarding my own personal Covid 19 recovery journey. I haven’t relapsed this week and I’m so happy about this. Every morning I wake up and hope that the pneumonia and pleurisy hasn’t returned. Baby steps though because I know from experience how unpredictable this illness can be.

I am however still suffering from fatigue and every ache and pain has me worrying. Thousands of people are feeling exactly the same as myself. The other day I strimmed some of the grass in my front garden and it wiped me out.

I’m trying to get things done but its taking me longer to do them so please be patient.

This week its been announced that as from the 24th of July its going to be mandatory for everyone to wear face masks in shops, obviously there are exceptions for people that can’t wear them.

I really do think that this will be a positive thing however is it too little too late? Personally I think that the government is trying to cover its back and are getting ready for a second covid 19 wave.

Please wear a mask if you can. They really do help. Take it from me Covid 19 is an awful virus. You can read my struggles in my previous blogs.

The DWP however haven’t wasted any time in reinstating full conditionality for job searching etc. Despite the fact that there’s fewer jobs out there than there have been for many years they want claimants to prove that they’re looking for work.

Look for work or be sanctioned. Sod the fact that there’s hardly any jobs out there, that people are shielding, recovering from Covid 19 and just can’t find work. The DWP have also employed more staff to deal with the extra claimants.

How on earth can you look for work when there are hardly any jobs out there? Thousand of people have been forced to claim Universal Credit because they lost their jobs during the pandemic. Thousands of businesses have shut their doors and many more will follow.

There isn’t enough jobs to go round.

The DWP is a heartless machine that doesn’t give a stuff about a claimants situation, their health struggles, childcare commitments etc etc. They just don’t care. My support goes to the claimants that are struggling under their cruel regime.

Many people have also forgotten that during the midst of the pandemic the two child limit and the benefit cap are both ensuring that both children and their parents are hungry, lacking in a half decent diet. This has resulted in record numbers of children being admitted into hospital for malnutrition related illnesses.

This week sees the re opening of some food banks and organisations, whilst this is good news and a great many amount of people will benefit from this, it isn’t good news that we need food banks in the first place.

The sad fact is that food bank usage has become normalised as has people being sanctioned and left with no money and the terrible deaths of thousands of people due to Covid 19.

I’ve found the UK to be very quick to normalise awful things that wouldn’t be tolerated in some other countries. This does us no favours whatsoever.

The awful truth is that people are still scared of being sanctioned, living in fear of becoming homeless as a result of this. Children are still suffering as are their parents. It’s a cruel world out there especially when you are poor.

What we do need is compassion, understanding and the opportunity to improve our life’s. A £10 restaurant voucher won’t improve anyone’s life, its worthless. But the government does realise this.

We need a society that enables us to flourish and to give us the opportunities to improve our life’s.

I want to pay tribute to everyone that has died as a result of the governments cruel, evil regime. I have them in my thoughts every single day and at my demonstrations I often read their names out and make sure that they are not forgotten.

The government want us to forget them though just like they want us to forget about everyone that have died as a result of Covid 19. They know that people would die but they regard our life’s as meaningless and surplus to requirements.

We cant let them downplay this pandemic into being nothing to worry about, just because they regard a human life as being worthless doesn’t mean that we have to do the same.

If you scroll back to previous blogs and click on the media button at the top of the blog you’ll find more of what I’ve done regarding this.

So what can we do?

We can continue to hold them accountable for each and every awful decision that they make. This can be done online via Twitter, Facebook etc, via emails and also collective action online.

I do what I can when I can.

I realised yesterday that I’m four months into my covid recovery, I’m hoping that I’m back to normal ASAP because I need to and want to do more.

My home has become both my safe space and my prison. In my mind I can do everything but then my body reminds me that I can’t.

To keep my mind busy I’ve started to paint using pastels and charcoal. I love doing this, and I wouldn’t be able to do this without the help of my friends.

I’ve read loads, all of the books that Ive been meaning to read for a long time.

I’ve started to research for a new project of mine regarding graveyards, cemeteries, death and burials mainly in the 18th and 19th centuries. Morbid I know but I find it interesting.

I am annoyed with myself because I cant provide more for my daughter. I can fully sympathise with everyone thats in the same position as me. I hear you, I walk the same path as you.

Before I end this blog post I want to thank everyone for reading and sharing my blog. I don’t get paid for anything that I do and each share means the world to me.

I want to thank my friends both online and in person for being there for me. It’s been a really scary time for me and I really don’t know what I would have done without you all.

Personally I feel so guilty because I haven’t been able to be the mum that my daughter used to know. I’d normally be taking her on walks etc, providing more for her but I cant. She’s been amazing though and I hope that I’m getting better now.

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Restaurant discounts given to people who can afford to eat out. Record number of people using food banks. Is this the new Let them eat cake?

Dear readers, its Thursday again and I hope that you are as well as you can be.

I know that many of my readers are struggling to get by from day to day, I can totally relate to this because I am too. This is one of the reasons why I’ve taken offence to the latest offering from Rishi Sunak.

Yesterday Sunak promised 50% dining vouchers to those that can afford to go out and eat. I don’t know you but I can’t remember the last time that I ate in a restaurant. The highlight of my week is when our food parcel arrives.

I see this as a massive insult towards us, a big two fingers up at our lack of income and lack of decent food. It also shows that once again they don’t have a clue about how WE live, how we survive and how hard we work hard to do so.

Yesterday the daily Covid 19 death rate rose to 126 deaths. Each one of these people that have sadly died were loved by someone albeit a mother, father, brother, sister, aunt, uncle and friend.

The government would like us to forget about their deaths because they’re in a rush to get the economy to be restarted, if it costs lives then they don’t care.

I’ve also noted that more people are trying to justify these deaths, maybe they’ve not experienced Covid 19 themselves, maybe they’ve not had a family member of friend die from it. Regardless it’s awful that this justification is happening. In my eyes one death is a death too many.

I can tell you from my personal experience that Covid 19 is an evil virus and the side effects can continue for long after the Covid virus has left our bodies.

I developed bacterial pneumonia which I understand is a fairly common side effect of Covid 19. I also developed pleurisy which is very painful. I’ve also taken four lots of antibiotics to try and get rid of it.

Friends of mine who are fellow Covid sufferers have had a wide range of awful symptoms including and not exclusively Eye problems, fatigue that I have also, unexplained pains in their bodies, rashes, the list seems endless doesn’t it.

Financially we are all suffering, my finances have been obliterated as have thousands of others. I hate feeling like this, I want to get better, I want to have a bigger income, I want to be able to go on long walks with my dog. I can’t though, my friends are in the same position and it’s awful.

Yesterday I had a phone call from my social housing landlord, they wanted to come and do a gas check which is good but it took me about ten minutes to get them to understand that I’m shielding because I don’t want to become ill again, nor do I want their workers to get ill also.

So many people really do believe that its “just” a flu, even though the flu can also kill you.

How am I managing though?

I’m a single parent and luckily my daughter is 13 now and is very sensible. She’s helped me so much and has put up with my crying when I felt awful, my lack of being able to do much around the house. She’s been a great support to me.

I do realise that I am very lucky to have her, I cant imagine how hard it is to have Covid 19 and have younger children, there’s no way that I could cope with that.

Thousands of parents are having to deal with this though, thousands of people are also carers for loved ones and receive no help both physically and financially.

I have learnt that doctors and other medical people really don’t know what to do with long term Covid 19 sufferers like myself. So many people have symptoms that they’ve never seen before. This results in not getting the help and support that we need and deserve.

The government have treated the Covid 19 pandemic with no care at all. They just DONT care. They view us as surplus to requirements.

What is worrying though is the fact that the government and the DWP expect everyone to be able to find a job during this pandemic. Sadly the new Universal Credit claimants will soon realise how awful this system really is.

Whilst I can’t tell you how long this pandemic will continue for, I can say that we have to sadly find our own support. I’ve found such support in Facebook groups and friends that have had it and are long time sufferers like myself.

So far my last lot of antibiotics have worked but I’m keeping everything crossed that it stays this way. I’m still suffering from fatigue and other symptoms but I’m trying to remain positive. One day I will feel better, I will be able to go on long walks with my dog and I will be able to say that I’ve beaten this awful virus.

I have taken some kind of solace in art, even though I’m not a good artist its helping me to take my mind off my symptoms.

Keep strong everyone, remember there are more of us than there is of them and together we are stronger.

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Are covid 19 deaths becoming the new norm?

Dear readers its Thursday yet again, I want to thank you all for reading and sharing my blog. By doing this you are helping to get the truth out there. You really are making a difference.

Last week I updated my blog saying that I was feeling much better. Sadly it didn’t last long though. I’ve relapsed again and I’ve now started another course of antibiotics. The liquid supplement that I’m taking is helping me, Ive got no doubt that I’d be much worse without it.

I’m really sorry to keep writing about this, but it’s my life at the moment. Depressing I know but its the truth and I really hope that I’m back to normal very soon.

To say that I have concerns about the lockdown being lifted again is a vast understatement. The death rates are still rising and I also suspect that the actual number of people infected has as well.

It’s easy to just go off the official figures and say that the infection rates are lowering, I get that, but I really do think that we could effectively double that amount because not everyone is tested.

The way that Covid 19 shows itself to individuals varies from person to person. Someone might have a cough, another doesn’t have a cough. Some people have a high temperature, others just have a slightly raised temperature. Some people have a bad headache, others don’t although they might have other symptoms such as being sick, having a sore throat and shortness of breath.

Because of these variations I’m sure that thousands of people don’t realise that they’re infected, this is probably because the government has been less than vague about sharing Covid 19 symptoms. As a result they’re still going out and spreading it in their local area. You can guarantee that the transmission figures are much higher than the official figures.

This weekend people will be able to go into their local pub again, whilst this is very good news for the pub licensee it isn’t for the customers. It’s going to be hard keeping to the new rules. Effectively the potential for people catching Covid 19 there is high.

However, the government doesn’t care though, what else should we expect. They’ve stopped televising the death rates in an attempt to brush Covid 19 under the carpet. Luckily people like myself haven’t forgotten and nor will we. It’s up to us to keep reminding them.

I have noticed something this week that concerns me deeply. Whilst talking to people and noticing comments online, the deaths of people due to Covid 19 related illnesses are quickly becoming normalised.

I’ll never understand how anyone can normalise death and suffering, especially large amounts of deaths like we are seeing now.

Is it a case of the its ok because it hasn’t affected me that runs rampant through society?

Are people scared so they become oblivious to it, trying to hide the fact that this is happening because its easier to deal with this way?

Is this happening because we’ve already been experiencing the deaths of thousands of people due to the benefit reforms, ESA and PIP assessments and reviews and Universal Credit related deaths?

Have we as a society become that used to death that it doesn’t matter anymore?

I’m not saying that everyone is like this though, thousands of people are angered by it just like I am, we are all pushing for change and recognition.

To be honest I find the normalising of death scary in itself because it devalues a human life. It’s easier for the government to not recognise each and every human life because it makes their job a lot easier.

Personally, like I’ve said before I do believe that the government are still pushing on with their herd immunity plans. We don’t mean anything to them, they see us as a burden upon society and expendable for their use.

So what do we do now?

We need to still continue to keep safe and follow the social distancing rules. If you need to go out, take precautions and do your own risk assessment. Don’t rely on the government or local government to do this for you. Both want commerce to begin asap.

We need to keep sharing the death stats. Whilst in reality they’re probably much higher than the official statistics its still important to share them. By doing this we are continuing to make people aware that its still happening.

We also need to share the stories of long term sufferers like myself. For some people the Covid 19 virus leaves the body after a few weeks with fatigue. This is awful in itself but for many of us it continues for months after the virus has left the body.

Personally I’m suffering from fatigue and stabbing pains in my lungs and other parts of my body. It hurts and no one can help you with it. I’ve been told that a hot water bottle might help but I don’t have one.

Other long term symptoms can be heart palpitations, brain fog, unexplained fatigue, nightmares, insomnia etc. This list isn’t exclusive though because so many people have so many other Covid 19 related health issues after contracting it.

I’ll leave this blog now with this. Be kind to each other, remember just because you might not have had a certain symptom doesn’t mean that someone else doesn’t have it.

We’ve got to remember that some people actually do believe the governments lies and deception. The blame for all of this falls heavily on the governments feet and its up to us to keep reminding them of this.

I’m sure that you agree with me that one death is a death too many.

Please keep safe.

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DWP refuses to extend sanction ban. Jobcentres to reopen this week putting thousands at risk of contracting Covid 19.

As we know benefit sanctions were suspended three months at the beginning of the pandemic in March. This was exactly the right thing to do during a pandemic even though I believe that they should be stopped.

Sanctioning is a cruel and heartless way of punishing an individual and their families.

Today in parliament Work and Pensions secretary has refused a call to extend the expiry date beyond June 30th.

So to put it plainly sanctions are returning tomorrow on the 30th of June and Jobcentres are reopening this week. This is despite the fact that Jobcentres haven’t got a how they’re going to open whilst keeping people safe. They don’t even care about keeping their staff safe let alone the public.

Therese Coffey has said that its “important’ for claimants to commit to look for work and to start attending appointments at Jobcentres as they reopen this week.

At the start of the pandemic the government did say that the sanctions ban would be reviewed and extended if required.

Obviously the government and Terese Coffey don’t believe that still being in the middle of a pandemic is good enough reason to extend the sanction ban.

Instead of being sympathetic towards the public and the claimants that are shielding for health reasons. Coffey is quoted as saying ” Well its actually important that as the Jobcentres fully re open this week, that we do reinstate the need for having a claimant commitment”

She went on to say “It’s an essential part of the contract to help people reconsider what vacancies there may be” At a time when thousands of people have lost their jobs and equal number of business have had to shut their doors, I really wonder what these jobs are that shes talking about.

She then said “There will be some people who’ve never had to look for a job for 20-30 years” From my experience of talking to these very people that Coffey is talking about, most people have worked but finding a job in this current climate is near impossible. She then went on to say the usual blurb about giving tailored support to claimants despite not being able to guarantee being able to keep claimants and DWP staff safe.

Unemployment has risen sharply, people are still shielding, schools haven’t fully reopened nor have doctors surgeries etc. We are still in the middle of a pandemic and the DWP clearly don’t care.

Jonathon Reynolds questioned Coffey asking if she would announce an immediate extension which she refused.

Jonathon Reynolds Shadow Work and Pensions Secretary said

“It is incomprehensible that the Government is bringing back conditionality and sanctions tomorrow. At a time when unemployment has risen sharply, vacancies have dropped, people are still shielding and the schools aren’t back, threatening people reducing their financial support if they don’t look for jobs is untenable.

“What’s more, Jobcentre Plus is still lacking guidance on how premises might even open safely. With the unemployment crisis looming, it is alarming that there is no thought being given on how to offer proper support to those seeking work at this time. We need a proper plan from the government to get Britain back to work – sanctions aren’t the answer.”

Even the acting Lib Dem Leader Ed Daley is quoted as saying that it is a terrible decision.

It goes without saying that Terese Coffey and the DWP have swinging bricks instead of hearts. Thousands of claimants are still shielding and will now have to put their own life’s and their loved ones life’s at risk.

Their decision will have serious ramifications for thousands of already vulnerable people.

Covid 19 is still here and its still killing people. When myself and others say that the government and the DWP don’t care it is evident to everyone now.

The questions are

How many people are going to have to miss DWP appointments because their shielding?

How many people are going to be sanctioned as a result of the above?

How many people are going to become ill or worse as a result of this decision?

It’s these people and more that I’m worried about.

We’ve already seen the beginning of people already being sent warnings that they’ll soon have to attend DWP medical appointments. No doubt they’ll start opening their doors soon.Please keep safe folks, easier said than done I know.

If you are shielding and the DWP insist on having you attend the Jobcentre for an appointment then tell them that you’re shielding. If they ignore this then please wear a mask and keep to the social distancing rules.

After years of being disgusted at the government and DWPs behaviour towards the public this has got to be one of the most callous things that they’ve done.

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Social distancing rules loosened again. People are still dying from Covid 19. Do they want us all to become seriously ill or die?

Dear readers its Thursday once again. I hope that you are all ok and as well as you can be.

As you already know I’ve been battling Covid 19 for a while now, it hit me hard just when I thought that I was getting better. It often does this because thats when the secondary illnesses set in.

Once you’ve got over this then the post viral fatigue sets in leaving you incapable of doing much except sleep. The simplest of tasks renders you unable to do anything except sleep.

This is exactly what I’ve been like, sleeping, trying to get things done in the house whilst still getting pains in my chest on and off. The doctor that I saw told me that my lungs are probably scarred and I need to continue to do breathing exercises.

All this said, I haven’t relapsed again and hopefully I wont. I’m trying to do household chores because they need doing and sitting down all the time isn’t good for me either.

I am very wary of pushing myself too much though, easier said than done when your a single parent, but I am very aware that I’ve been very lucky and it could have been much worse.

My life has changed though, I’m now reliant upon food parcels to keep us going. It upsets me to have to say this but its reality and I’m very grateful for the help. It is pretty shit though when you cant go shopping for food etc like you used to.

What I have learnt from this is that life is very fragile and it can be taken away so easily and without warning. That in itself is a very scary thought, especially for someone like me who thought that I was invincible at times. I now know that I’m not and I’m really grateful to be here albeit in much reduced circumstances.

Meanwhile the government believes that its ok to loosen the social distancing rules again, to change the two meter rule and to open up pubs again.

The re opening of the pubs will be good for business but it wont be good for health. I doubt that many people will be thinking that whilst they’re ordering their first pint for a long while that they’ll also be ordering a side order of Covid 19.

To be honest I’m disgusted that the government have seen fit to do this. The mortality rates are rising once again and people are still dying.

I do have a theory about this though, I was discussing this with a friend this morning. The government have been continuing with their herd immunity plans in all but name. They worship at the gods of money and commerce and they want their friends to be profiting from the poor as soon as possible, even when they know that its not safe.

Getting your head around the fact that the government doesn’t care if we become ill or die can be very hard for some because we used to have governments that cared for our well being. Sadly they’re long gone now and wont be returning for a while.

I’m really trying to be positive but there isn’t a lot to be positive about at the moment and once again I urge you to keep safe and still practice social distancing.

The government are now going to pass the blame for the second wave of Covid 19 illnesses and deaths onto the NHS, local governments and ourselves as individuals. This is very worrying because they are to blame for the worsening of this crisis. As individuals we need to keep holding them responsible. We aren’t to blame for this they are and they know it.

On another note it was really good to see that the four women that took the government to court regarding the way that Universal Credit does not recognise that two paydays fell within their assessment periods.

The DWP decided wrongly that they had doubled their salaries in the first month and reduced their benefits by a large amount.

Universal credit does not recognise the fact that some months are longer than others, therefore of course people will get more than one wage every now and then. Sadly the DWP don’t recognise this because they want to reduce a claimants payments as much as possible. Decent common sense doesn’t even enter the equation.

Quite rightly the four incredibly brave women took the DWP to court and it was then that the DWP then waged a two year battle against them, ending in the court of appeal where the DWP lost again.

The DWP like to see people suffer, from my experience they’re quite sadistic in taking revenge upon anyone that decides to complain and appeal against anything.

It would be unwise to think that the government will change anything because of this ruling though, they won’t even commit to giving claimants backdated money on the basis of the court judgement.

The DWP stated that there were “only” 1,500 people affected by this despite the real figures being around 85,000. Expect the judgement to be filed in the same drawer as the ECHR reports are filed.

So what do we do now?

We need to continue to campaign against the evil machine which is Universal Credit.

I will be back outside Ashton under lyne Jobcentre as soon as it re opens.

I will also be continuing to campaign against the governments disgusting handling of the Covid 19 pandemic. I will also continue to share the daily death rates because the government wants us to forget all about it.

Please spare a thought for the disabled man that starved to death because he wasn’t able to access food essentials. 38% of disabled or vulnerable people were unable to get online shopping orders and a further 26% were scared of catching Covid 19 in supermarkets.

I’m afraid to say that this probably wasn’t the only death and it will happen again when the government ends its shielding practice.

Please keep safe, each and every one of you are in my thoughts.

I wish that I could do more but my health has been bad and I’m on a very limited income.

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Second Covid 19 wave coming? Does being poor affect your Covid 19 recovery?

 

Dear readers its Thursday again. I’m sure that many of you will agree when I say that each and every day appears to merge into each other.

I do have some good news though. I haven’t rebounded again yet so I’m very grateful for that, however my recovery is taking me longer than I thought that it would.

To be honest I really didn’t know what to expect because I really didn’t think that I’d catch covid 19. I was being very careful, wearing a mask etc but I do think that I caught it locally.

I had a bit of a meltdown this week. I received a Fray Bentos pie in a food parcel and I wanted to cook it for tea for my daughter and I. I normally can open them to the point where I can put them in the oven but not this time.

After several attempts and swear words being uttered I gave up in the end. I tried everything even using a very old tin opener, my old faithful that can open anything.

Knowing that I couldn’t go to the shop to buy a replacement really upset me. Covid 19 has changed my life so much.

Physically I am getting better slowly, I managed to take my dog on two very short walks which he and I was very grateful for. It was nice to get out in nature again, my favourite place to be.

Financially its ruined me and here’s a good example of that. Yesterday I ran out of gas and I cant afford to replace it. Any money that I did have has gone to pay bills etc. So now I’m not going to be able to cook anything on my cooker and that really upsets me.

I realise that its not the end of the world but this has broken me. I don’t know why but it has. I am grateful for the fact that Ive been able to pay my other bills though.

Because we have no gas we can’t have a bath etc so this really upsets me as well, not for me but for my teenage daughter. Ah well, these things happen and I shouldn’t complain.

Having Covid 19 is one thing, being poor and having it is another and it certainly doesn’t help our recovery. They say that to recover properly you need a good diet. That’s practically impossible for so many of us.

The reality is that our diet and lifestyles do matter and both do aid our recovery, but it is what it is and I cant lie it stinks.

So basically if you can’t eat healthily and can’t rest it’s going to take you a lot longer to recover and you’re likely to get further complications as a result. 

This past week has seen some really stupid behaviour regarding others. In my area there was one of two massive so called raves (I say so called because no real rave organiser would leave a place in such a state as they left it). These raves had thousands of people attending, none of them wearing face masks, none of them social distancing.

I know that when you’re young you think that you are invincible but even so this was ridiculous. Two actors from Hollyoaks even attended and were forced to admit it after being outed on social media.

Then we had the re opening of non essential shops. In my local area, and I suppose in many the queues were massive. In a town close to me they were queuing to get into Sports Direct. Once again no social distancing was adhered to.

I also saw family bloggers from the UK going clothes shopping whilst not keeping to the social distancing rules and touching items of clothing etc and putting them back.

Whilst this might seem unimportant to many, these family vlogging channels influence so many young people. Their young viewers could well go out and do the same thing.

Then we had the recent protest marches, and while I totally agree with the reasoning behind the BAME marches so many people have put themselves at risk of Covid 19.

So why am I worrying about the above? The plain fact is that many of the above people could catch covid 19 and many could die.

Even a mild case like I had could leave you suffering from the side effects for a long time afterwards.

The NHS is going to struggle to cope with a much larger second wave of Covid 19. The nurses, doctors and HCA put their own life’s at risk whilst caring for others, so yes it does make me angry to see people walk around as if nothing has happened.

Will we get a second wave of Covid 19?

Whilst I cant say for certain but I think that its very likely.

Will the NHS be able to cope with a second wave?

They’ll do their best under very hard circumstances.

I can say with some certainty though that the government will try to put the blame on the NHS and the public. They’ve shifted all of the responsibility on our shoulders and the NHS shoulders. We need to protect and support our NHS.

Johnson is in trouble and he knows it. He wants to pass the blame for any failings onto everyone but himself. His lack of action and clear guidance has caused thousands of deaths. He needs to be reminded of this constantly.

Watch out he’ll be blaming the teaching unions and teachers for the schools not opening. He’ll want to paint them as the bad people even though they want to put our children first unlike him.

I’ll end this blog here, I want to pay my respects to George Floyd, he should never have been killed like this and my thoughts and prayers are with his family and friends.

I wish that my blogs could be happier but it is what it is at the moment but it is what it is.

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